To-day I managed to get into the garden for the first time in a week and hoped to get some quality work done, well I planted and hoed,and swept leaves and weeded. I stopped at 5.30 pm to walk the dogs, and boy did I ache, I could hardly drag myself up the slopes from the beach, When i got home and ran a bath for a good soak, then my brain started turning, please God don’t let me have done too much.
Over five years ago one August morning I experienced the most excruciating pain radiating from my hip to knee, I thought I'd had an electric shock, as I was standing by the cooker, or even a heart attack as my heart was racing i was sweating and had pins and needles. It turned out I had dislocated two discs in my lower back. I thought that it was only tall people got back problems, but obviously not. When the doctor came out he of course asked me what I had been doing lately, I had been gardening yes, then when I remembered I had been laying paving slabs, and spreading pebbles for a couple of weeks, before I turned in I brushed the dogs and recalled my back ached, but thought nothing of it at the time.
I was sent for scans had Epidurals, various pain killers endured blood tests, which showed up I was anaemic. I couldn’t walk and was in constant pain. I’d pretty much made up my mind if I wasn’t walking by Christmas I would top myself, and I was serious, I couldn’t bear not to be able to ever walk with my dogs ever again. ,friends were doing that for me. All in all it was a tough time.
Eventually I got a bit more mobile. and I was offered half price 10 week membership for the Gym to have a course of physiotherapy.
I hated it, I had a set course of exercises so couldn’t do what I wanted, I got bored cycling and getting nowhere, I got annoyed having to sit on a big ball and lift my feet up to keep my balance, running on a treadmill seemed pointless, sitting and pulling weights up and down or from back to front was a bit like hard work. I didn’t complete the course as I couldn’t see why I was doing it. And this is the whole point of writing this post, no one told me what the benefits of each exercise was, no one supervised me to see that I was doing things properly, I was not aware that certain exercises were to strengthen the back muscles or improve my balance which was badly affected. I was monitored by computer, if I missed an exercise or skipped the required number of push ups or pull downs it told me, so I had to go back and rectify it.
I attended hospital and then my doctor for a further six months, till they eventually told me nothing more could be done as the nerves were irreparably damaged.
I still get discomfort and pains in my leg sometimes as though I'd been walking through nettles,
Every morning since it happened I get out of bed carefully, straighten up when I sneeze, bend knees when lifting and put my foot on a chair to tie my laces.
I often wonder had I finished the course - maybe it would have helped improve the situation, maybe I would have stayed the course had I been told the particular benefits of the exercises.
Please, please I haven’t screwed up after my over exuberant gardening to-day.