Coming to terms

'Coming to terms' by reading these words it would give the impression that all is well and I'm getting over the loss of my special boy, No, No, No, I think of him constantly, going over and over in my mind whether or not I made the decision too early or too late, though I knew it was inevitable, THAT I have come to terms with, But the empty space that is left in my heart I certainly will never come to terms with, though again I won't go around forever grieving, the outward shell hardens and you learn to keep your sorrow to yourself, I know that there are going to be times when I will  get a snapshot in my mind coming totally out off the blue, of a memory of a walk or a glance to see him lying by my chair asleep, him bouncing up the path wehn we're going for a walk, No, I will never 'come to terms' with knowing I will never experience these things again.
But I am trying to keep busy, I did a good bit of baking yesterday Some Coconut cake, and a Devil's food cake' I also went out with my friend Sue and her four dogs Wednesday evening and Friday morning, went to my Mah jong class and won four times. YAY! Last night my daughter and her husband came over, and to-day I went shopping for a new Vacuum cleaner as mine is making strange noises, just like the lawn mower. After shopping I went with Ruby for a longish walk along the beach, To-night we have a quiz night and family and friends are coming along to help support it. SO all in all I have been keeping the demons at bay by keeping busy, I was sent this rather touching poem by the couple who have Tango's brother, the last survivor of the litter. so kind of them to think of me.

 Thank You

Thank you for all the years we shared together you and I.

The walks we went, the games we played, the time flew swiftly by.

You fed me, you trained me, groomed me, showed me kindness, without fail.

I tried to show my gratitude, with the wagging of my tail.

You told me many a secret and I never passed one on.

I hope that you’ll remember happy times when I am gone.

A few short years is all we have to share.

So thank you for your kindness, your love and all your care.

And don’t be sad about me now, be glad we shared those years.

Remember me with gratitude, and let not fall your tears.

Remember me with happiness, for me there is no pain.

And please consider sharing love with a small pup again…

Thank you for visiting and please come back, Arlene, Tango and Ruby